The paradox of the rabbit hole of the awoken ones

It is time to address the elephant in the room.

So many of the so-called woke people, lightworkers and rainbow warriors are stuck in a rabbit hole.

It is a rabbit hole of fear and anger, depression and doubt, complot and doom. I see so many people around me being completely submerged in vacc1nes, underreported s1de effects, anti c0v1d measures, the r1sk of face m4sks, whistleblowing d0ctors, f4ke numb3rs reported by the ma1n str3am med1a, hum4n f3tuses, Kl4us Schw4b, Illum1n4t1, n3w w0rld 0rd3r and on top of that a complete dark corner of the internet full of new holes full of complot bunnies.

Are you really awake when you live in a mindset of fear? Are you truly free if your actions are only driven by opposition?

Don’t get me wrong – I’m not a fan of the changes the western world has shown since the Cov1d outbreak. I also believe it is essential to safeguard our values of love and connection, of respect and compassion and I believe many of the current fear- and control-based ways of dealing with reality are very bad for our spiritual and mental health.

The paradox is – people on both sides of the spectrum share the same behavior, the same experience of the same range of emotions, the same us versus them-thinking, the same exposure to mind-controlling and even paralyzing media and propaganda and the same (not only physical) separation from their loved ones. Countless families have been torn and bonds have been broken over the stupidity of rationalized fear and anger.

But, more importantly, from a metaphysical and magickal perspective, the woke ones opposing the measures are fueling the world they do not wish to come into existence. This is just plain dangerous and will have to stop. I won’t be able to do this by myself, so I need your help. Hear me out and read carefully, and if anything resonates with you, I hope you pass your newfound wisdom on to someone you love.

If you care about yourself, your surroundings and our collective future, there are three simple steps you should take. 1) Free your mind of fear- and control-based thinking, 2) Awaken your Inner God the Creator, 3) Shape your Future. It is as simple as that. I will explain this to you on a spiritual, metaphysical and magickal level.

Be a Unicorn

In the first warm days of 2020, right at the beginning of the first lockdown, I experienced a very invasive moment with law enforcers in the woods. The few people in the forest (it was a beautifully warm and sunny day) were happy to have a good break from the lockdown dread, when suddenly a van showed up and law enforcers with megaphones would enforce people to go home, to safety, while shouting at them from a distance how bad and irresponsible citizens they were. The situation felt very infringing to me and I turned 180 degrees and walked away in a complete shock of outrage and disbelief. It took me a while, but then I calmed down a bit, thanks to the trees that embraced me with their warmth and safety. As soon as I came to peace, my mind’s eye saw the image of a unicorn breaking himself free from the chains and the cage that was built around him.

The trees spoke to me:

“Anca, you are a free spirit, they can never get you down. Always remember you are a free spirit and you will be free.”

At this very moment, I have stepped out of the fear mindset and never returned to it again. It changed everything for the better; from my relationship with the V1rus and all the information to my own subjective experience of the measures and my relationships with my loved ones, independent of personal opinion.

The Road to Freedom of Mind:
I invite everyone who is stuck in the polarized debate, information overload, social anxiety related to Cov1d measures, and a panicking monkey mind that tries to prevent a dystopian future, to fully engage and work with the Unicorn as a spirit animal. Free the mind, free the spirit.

Free yourself of limiting false beliefs

The current energy is globally very stagnant and limiting, simply because many people have allowed their minds to be put in a cage full of limiting beliefs. I want to do this but I cannot because of Cov1d, I want to go to another part of the world but I cannot travel because of Cov1d, and I want to chase my dream but my life is on hold because of Cov1d are all examples of limiting and false beliefs that make your reality smaller and smaller.

The only reason that you are stuck, is because you are using your brain in a counterproductive way. The only real reason many people stay idle in a situation they don’t like, is because their monkey mind is in charge. It prefers a sense of control and the safety of the boring known above the thrill of the unchartered territories of your wildest imagination. Therefore it will load you with what ifs and can not’s if left unbridled. Our society values the rational use of the mind, and most people are convinced our decision-making is rational. But as long as you are not aware of the very primordial nature of the monkey mind you have put in charge, this is just another false belief and your decisions are actually the opposite of rational since they are mostly triggered by survival instincts like your sense of safety and scarcity.

The mind is not at all evil. It is the source of our intellect and inspiration, communication and fantasy. The mind is what makes us visionaries. The monkey mind is very useful in survival situations, but when the whole life feels like a threat, it is dangerous to put the monkey on the driver’s seat, because it limits the higher functions of the mind.

It is important to recognize the voice of your survival-driven monkey mind because this helps you to differentiate rational thought from false belief and move from survival-thinking to inspiration. I recommend practicing meditation to teach the monkey mind that even though his services are appreciated, he sometimes has to accept the back seat of the car.

Eventually, a better compass is the heart, which is the seat of the Soul and holds the secret of your true purpose. It requires courage and great control of the monkey mind to truly follow your heart and live the life you are meant to be living.

The Road to Freedom of False Beliefs:
Learn to differentiate the voice of your survival-driven ego through practicing meditation. Learn to use your mind in an expansive, creative way instead of a limiting way. Learn to follow your heart because it brings you closer to a life full of purpose.

Fully embrace your inner Creator-God

Remember we are created in the image of God. Personal beliefs aside, this means we are Creators. What our mind can see (air) and our hearts can desire (water), through pure forward-moving energy (fire), we can bring to life in the physical world (earth).

You have learned to become free in your mind and to differentiate your intellect and inspiration from the primordial control- and survival-driven ego. This opens the path to the creation of a new world and a new life. A way of living that does righteousness to your dreams and inner compass.

If you are a free spirit, you will understand that there is no such thing as a box. The potential of creation is limitless.

Now apply this principle to create your life’s master plan. In what kind of world do you want to live, how do you treat others, and what will you leave for your children?

This is also where you will need to cut out distractions and focus on your life’s work. This is what you live for. If you are creating the kind of life you dream of, you will find no place for fear, mind-controlling programming, anger or social distractions. This is a process to be lived in love!

Many of us are born or awakened to the sense that we are here on Earth in this time to make the paradigm shift happen. This is where you should wake up and really wake up and pay attention. If you are called, start creating. Train the f*cking monkey mind and go live your purpose. You have a different role to play than being stuck in survival mode.

Are you still stuck in a box? Start dreaming, start creating. Start building the world that you want to become.

Wanna use a bit of extra magic? Start treating your dreams and fantasies as visions. Do you see yourself on the back of a horse traveling through the mountains of a faraway country, see it as a glimpse of the future. As a possible outcome of the full deck of cards this life has to offer. Take a step in the right direction, and you will make this vision instantly more likely to come to reality. After this first step, it is “only” a matter of trusting the process and having the bravery to follow your heart (and visions).

The Road to Re-embodying the Creator:
Control the Monkey Mind. Cease ALL distractions. Focus on your dreams and visions, dare to take steps, support each other. Be the lead, embody the paradigm shift. Dream for society, dream for your children, and dream for humanity.

The metaphysical complot paradox

Back to the whole Cov1d thing. An interesting bit of quantum mechanics that supports Chaos Magick is the double-split experiment, that proved how both light and matter can be waves and particles, depending on being observed or not. The conclusion of this experiment is that you cannot know where light or matter is, it can be in all locations, until you observe it. Only the “now” is observed so can be considered with relative certainty, but the more in the future, the greater the variation in options.

If you then apply this to Magick, to observe the future, is to improve the certainty of it actually happening. This is also why Tarot cards work. They offer a glimpse into the future. For visions goes the same.

If a vision is a glimpse of the outcome, you now understand why it is a big problem when a collective worldwide group is thinking in doomsday visions 24/7 for the last 2 years. Every time you are consumed by the impact of a new measure, your Monkey Mind is back in the driver’s seat and your process starts over.

If this doesn’t wake you up, I’m not sure what would.

This is Evolution, baby, the new Aeon!

The Road to Applying Modern Physics:
Cease all counterproductive Visions. Dream of a New World. Help me reach all corners of the Earth with this request. Stop Dreaming Doomsday. Cease All Programming and Distractions. Think For Yourself. Question Authority. Support each other’s Visions. Let our Minds be an Army for a New World.

Be the example you want to be, fearless and uncompromising. Share the love with your loved ones. Invite another in a fearless embrace. Start being the creator that you are and take your visions seriously. Follow in each other’s Footsteps. Build the future of your dreams, for your kin and your children. Step away from mind-controlling and programming (social) media on both sides of the spectrum. It only feeds your control-driven ego and survival-driven monkey mind. Trust your heart; it knows everything you need. Be the Paradigm Shift. Embrace the Magick.

Be a Unicorn.

Love is the Law.

Follow your Visions.

Holy Smokes; the warm embrace of my self-love incense

Sometimes, someone crosses your path and makes you go to extraordinary lengths to create something truly beautiful. This time, it was someone whose daily life requires tremendous self-sacrifice of both herself and her husband. After I had heard her story I went to work and have created an incense that invokes self-love like nothing I have ever created before.

The result is an incense that can be used when your daily life and interaction with other people are demanding, you lose yourself a little and you just need a hug and be told how loved you are. In the midst of the storm around you, these holy smokes bring the message that you are loved, you are worthy, and you are whole.

All my smokes are ceremonially crafted loose incenses, to be used with charcoal disks or a sieve burner. The recipe consists of resins and a combination of warming, rich and relaxing herbs and flowers like cinnamon, rose and lavender. The ingredients are partly hand-harvested by myself.

The incense holds you in a warm and tender embrace until your heart radiates with love, warmth and compassion.

The story of the trees

Tell me, did you ever have a conversation with a tree?

Trees are amongst my favourite beings on earth.

They teach us about stillness, resilience, and the most subtle and invisible layers of reciprocity, symbiosis and even kinship. Throughout the year, they are a beautiful expression of the cycle of life, shedding the old in autumn and coming to life again in spring. The evergreens teach us about immortality, endurance and strength in the coldness of winter. The trees that grow on the most damaged soils show us that the earth is fertile and is always able to recover, even if we humans ruin it all.

This kind of symbolic language and meaning can be understood through observation. But there is a deeper layer of contact and understanding.

This is something I have discovered when my sensitivity to feel the subtle energies all around me, was completely unmanageable. All the people and movements and encounters within the city were too much to process for my brain, and therefore I found sanctuary with the trees.

All of a sudden I noticed something I had never been aware of before: that the trees (and the earth) have a pulse. A heartbeat.

And that I could sense their energetic field and the energy exchange between myself and the trees.

This discovery stunned me and sang to my soul and filled my mind with imagination. Who would have known, the trees that were always there for my whole life, that I had visited and spoken to so often, they had a heartbeat!

It was the start of a new journey. I became strongly aware that many trees can outlive us and become hundreds or thousands of years old – if we humans only let them, at least! – and are the safe keepers of the wisdom of many ages and many generations. They saw the world around them change. They saw the people change. And whenever we stumble and fall, they are there to remind us of who we are and where we come from.

A special example close to my home is a Giant Sequoia of (only) 130 years old. It has been planted on an estate that is now a public park, by a family that was of big importance for the development and growth of my city. They brought the seeds from California and the tree is one of the biggest of its kind in my country.

Sequoias though can become 3000 years old, so in that sense, this one is still a little baby! Yet we should understand that this tree is the kin of the Californian giants and carries the same genes, just like the seeds of this tree carry the full potentiality to become a 3000-year-old giant over time.

These giant trees hold the wisdom of the ages and the history of humankind. They confront ourselves with our past and future, knowing we are only a breath in the lifetime of a Sequoia Tree. This specific giant is a friendly one, often surrounded by kids and people. She is often touched and very loved by many.

And then humankind had to interfere. Humans always have to interfere. Humans with their short lives and short-sighted management strategies. They all want to change something, to build something, to be remembered by something so that they live on after they die. Some years ago her lower branches, which allowed for climbing and direct contact, were taken away. Last year, someone decided to give this beautiful sequoia a wooden platform all around its trunk. Probably with the best intentions, but it is an unnecessary and probably expensive change that only brings us only further away from this beautiful tree. The children cannot connect with the ground anymore when they visit her. And this saddens her so much. She has so much to give and so much to offer, and over time it became harder and harder for her to find people who are able to hear her call. And now people have taken away the possibility to connect with the earth around her trunk in a moment of short-sighted management.

It is possibly with the best intent. But it is a step away from nature. A barrier of air between the people and the tree.

I have promised this Sequoia that I would tell her story, and that day, there was a seed planted in my mind that we should make sure that this tree will have offspring. To make sure that her genes and her wisdom live on, even when some short-sighted cold-hearted manager would ever decide to cut her down. She gifted me three cones to do so.

We live in a time where it is profitable to take down old trees in order to receive subsidies to plant new ones. Please, plant a tree and stand against the stupidity and shortsightedness of our age.


If you would like to build your own relationships with trees in your area, you might like to read “How to make friends with the trees”.

How to make friends with the trees

Would you also like to make friends with the trees in your surroundings? It is possible. You don’t have to be highly sensitive to subtle energy like I was when I discovered that I could talk with the trees, though it might require you to do some extra effort and inner work before you are receptive enough to feel their pulse or hear their voice.

Over the years I have gathered my insights and have taken friends to the woods as well. I am fairly confident that with my help and your own true and open heart you can start building your own and personal working relationship with the trees around you.

How to choose a tree?

Over the years of working with trees, I have noticed that it is often the monumental, eye-catching trees that are close to paths, that are also quite easy to work with. They are used to having people around them and are often of a certain age that they also have a lot to share.

Distant trees, away from paths, are also more distant in nature and seem to like their privacy. But with a little patience and the right intent, they could give you wonderful results.

In places where the trees have less of an individual character, which is often the case in production forests, the energy is more that of the collective. It is then a lot harder to separate the energy of one tree from its neighbor.

That one tree that immediately went through your mind while reading this, is most likely a good one.

A few things first

Now you have chosen a tree, please try to understand the nature of a tree. Trees are still beings, and therefore require our inner stillness in order to connect with them. They also require you to take down your defense and bridle your ego. If you built a wall around you, you can’t blame the tree for not trying hard enough to reach you. If you are too full of yourself or too self-confident, a tree ignoring you altogether is probably a lesson you need. To meet a tree means to meet them on their level, and this requires some dignity and humbleness and openness of heart.

Trees are usually very kind and well-willing beings. Some are easier to sense and hear than others, though. If you’re not getting any results, it might require a bit more work before the tree makes itself available to you. If the ego is a problem, consider bringing offerings to the tree before asking anything in return.

Upon entering the forest

The normal, A-to-B-kind of pace, often even hurried, or worse: in competition with yourself or others doing some kind of sports, is way too much for a tree. When you want to work on your connection with the trees, it is important to slow down your pace. Sloooow. Slow down even more. Lighten and soften your steps. Become slower and stiller.

Quiet your mind and engage your senses. You could use your own method for this, for instance through meditation, but what I like to do and do also with others is to bring the focus to your senses. The goal is to attune yourself so that you are able to feel subtle energy.

“This is not a practice of the mind but of the heart.”

When you are in a place where you will not be disturbed (preferably close to the tree you chose for your first attempt of connection), look around you and take in your surroundings. Now close your eyes. Since vision is the primary sense which we rely on most, we will first focus on the others.

Take a few deep breaths in through your nose, and let your breath flow out on relaxation. Feel how the inwards flowing air is colder, and the outwards flowing air is warmer. On every out-breath, let go of all the tension in your body. Your body will relax, and your mind will relax.

Now, hear and listen. You will probably hear the wind, the birds, maybe the rain, or traffic, or other people or animals. Don’t label what you hear, this is not a practice of the mind but of the heart. Just listen to the symphony of the forest and let the sounds flow into you.

Then, you focus on what you feel around you. Do you feel the atmosphere? Maybe it is cold and damp, or warm and dry. Feel the sensation on your skin. Feel the drops of rain and the flow of air by the wind. If the sun is shining, turn your head towards the sun and catch the sunlight with your face and your hand palms. Feel yourself absorbing the sunlight and filling yourself with the warmth.

Now, smell the forest. Again, you don’t have to label the smells that you discover. Just experience them flowing into your body. Fully engage yourself with the smell.

Now, taste the forest. Taste? Yes! You don’t have to put anything in your mouth (you may, if you are fairly certain it’s not toxic plants, but please do it some other time than now, and not on my advice). No, I ask you to taste the air of the forest. Just like it has a certain smell you can also taste this smell. The way to do this is by opening your lips a little bit with your mouth closed, and sucking in the air through the little openings between your teeth. The air will reach the taste buds on your tongue. This is how you can experience and submerge in the taste of the forest.

Quietly open your eyes and look around you. Has the forest around you changed? There is a big chance you will notice deeper colors, little flickerings of light and small details that you previously wouldn’t notice. Your senses are now heightened and your mind is at peace.

Meeting with your tree

Now it is time to meet the tree. Hopefully, after this preparation, you will be light-hearted and light-footed. You can just follow your instincts, you don’t need to approach the tree in a specific special way. If I would ask you to, I would only ask you to engage your mind and that is what I want to prevent after you so carefully prepared yourself in submerging in your senses.

Therefore, do what feels right. Say hello and talk, if you want to. Feel the bark and the leaves with the loving touch of your fingers, if you like to. But, be open. Have an open heart, be an open channel, be open to receive.

“Who is this tree, how does he or she feel?”

For the first meeting, it would be wonderful if you would be able to feel the energy (“Who is this tree, how does he or she feel?”) and heartbeat (“Hey, this tree has a pulse and I can feel it!”). Just like when preparing yourself, you will submerge in the experience instead of observing with your mind. Once you have a good idea of one or two of these aspects, you could already consider it a very successful first experience. If you are really there with an open heart, it probably will only come naturally to you to thank the tree for the exchange.

When it comes to an actual conversation, you should know that talking with trees isn’t done with actual words. It is your own spirit that speaks and receives.

I think this should be enough to get you started. I wish you many wonderful encounters, insights and new friendships!

Soothing Smokes for the Fall season

Every year, around the Fall Equinox, there is a precarious balance between light and dark, life and death, day and night. For a few days, we experience this stillness. Short after, the dark prevails. Nature all around us shows signs of decay. This was it for this year. It is time to part.

This shift of balance from outwardly oriented, expansive, growing, blooming and extravert to inwardly focused, contactive, nurturing and introvert can also be observed within ourselves. As within, so without.

For some people fall season brings something magical. It is time to dive deep within the inner realms. Time to find comfort with your loved ones. Time for sweet smelling spices and the heat of the hearth. I count myself in this category.

Others experience this time of year as a harsh and painful goodbye. They flourish when charged by the Sun and are tormented by the perspective of a period of introspection, cold and lack of light. Yet the cycle of transformation is inevitable and therefore could better be embraced.

The incense blend I have created for this process, is based on the sweet and soothing tones of benzoin resin, the healing properties of rosemary, the protection of angelica and the warmth and richness of the flowers of the basil. It is a soft, soothing and aromatic blend that holds your hand through any transformation life throws at you.